Thursday, November 22, 2012

And before I even knew it I'm already halfway into the "Got Money Got Energy No Time" phase of life.

Although technically "got money" is debatable, uni and all.

Monday, November 19, 2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nif01WZ9aI

If money weren't an issue maybe I wouldn't be in this city at all.

I honestly think that there's something innately tragic about this carpe diem mentality and how it garners support and faith amongst people, even serving somewhat as a panacea for the lost. Better to live a short and full life than a long and miserable one, they'll always say. Just do something that you're passionate in and don't care about the money.

Be my guest, but please don't ever think that this mentality will ever help the world at large. It's interesting because I see top comments on youtube that feel that "There will always be someone that will be interested in what you aren't interested in", extending it to even cleaning the sewers, ignoring the problems that education, proportions of people who want certain jobs, changing perceptions of what is socially acceptable, people to care after and other issues (I'm really tempted to put "economics" as an issue precisely because they say "ignore the money")

The number of people who will truly enjoy what they do for a living right now is without doubt a scarce minority, a drop in the red ocean. To say that this should be the case and that all is fine with the world is almost wronging humanity in itself. But to go about this with a 'everything will solve itself' mentality or even the 'live life fully and quickly' kind of mentality is just a tragic response to the issue - to not attempt to fight your way to a meaningful survival and live instead as the bright spark that shines ever so brightly yet dies ever so quickly.

The very worst would be when what you intend to do doesn't stop at burning you away in passion - it further burns those who believed and had faith in you.Your dreams will cost others dearly.

Of course, once you master whatever you loved, life would be different. But when will that happen? Will you ever make it there?

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Perhaps I am still bitter over it all.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

KAC Flight Annoyances

Not being able to make a single arrangement even though I know everything right in front of me because people just aren't getting back to me is probably the most rage-inducing thing in the world.

The thing that kills dreams and hopes and attempts to make them into real life isn't naivete or fear of risk-taking - it's emails that take one week to get back to you and the tape and everything else that will never flow like clockwork that do.

Yes this perfectly fell within my expectations but I went ahead with it anyway fully aware of the insanity that this involves. I just wish that the insanity wasn't because I had only 5 days before the competition before I got a confirmed flight detail and because I was going to do what I was going to do.

Really, I know that real life is a bitch and things never turn out as easy as you'd wish they do but sometimes it gets more annoying than usual. Sigh